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Date : Friday, January 1, 2016
Time : 10:34 PM Title : 1/365 2015 have been rather eventful as I compare it to the past few years, where my life revolved around nursing ever since polytechnic. 3 years in polytechnic, followed by 2 years working as a full-fledged staff nurse at KK Hospital in the department I've always wanted to work in - paediatrics. 2015 also marked the completion of my 2 years bond with the hospital, where I typed my first formal resignation letter to pursue degree on a full-time basis.
Resigning from KK Hospital and joining SIT-UOM has gotta be one of the biggest change in 2015. After leaving school for 2 years and being so accustomed to and comfortable in the working environment I was in, it was both an easy and difficult decision. Joining SIT have always been the next career step I wanted to take, however that also meant I need to bring myself out of my comfort zone - my workplace. No doubt I miss work terribly. I miss working with the awesome ladies in W85, I miss working with the lil ones. But I definitely have no regrets thus far, as it's been something that I wanted to do, so if not now, when? But I certainly look forward to joining KK Hospital again upon graduation. Being an undergraduate student is definitely not going to be easy, neither am I hoping for it to be an easy journey. All I hope to gain out of this degree is not just to become a better nurse, but to become a better person as a whole. For my patients, for my loved ones, and for myself. The beginning of 2015, I resolved to step out of my comfort zone in order to widen my horizon. It was also the year where I felt a need to adjust and change a lot of my mindsets, in order to be happier and less temperamental. As I embark on this adjustment process, I got to realise a lot of things about myself, became more open-hearted, but at the same time, I realised feelings were hurt along the way and I'm terribly sorry for that. This year, 2016, I promise to do better. Thank you 2015, for being so kind to me. Thankful for the new friends I've made in school, thankful for my subgroup members from 'Tangled' for being such fantastic project mates to work along with, and especially thankful for the old friends who sticked around for yet another year with me despite me not being to meet-up with them as frequent as we used to now that I've gone back to school. I don't usually make such statement, but 2015 has gotta be one of the best year. May 2016 brings greater goodness to everyone!
Date : Friday, August 28, 2015
Time : 12:50 AM Title : I feel like I'm playing with fire.
Please don't let history repeat itself again :(
Date : Tuesday, August 11, 2015
Time : 9:46 PM Title : #caretogobeyond 
Just as I thought that I'm going through a rough patch at work, this happened.
I really feel that I do not deserve this, which was one of the reason why I initially rejected to be interviewed (not that I was specially chosen, they just happen to need a mandarin speaking nurse who happened to be working over the jubilee weekend and everything was last minute decision).
Thankful for this once in a lifetime opportunity to represent Singaporean nurses. Possibly the first and last time. It may sound like a scripted interview, and the answers sound politically correct, however, that's how I feel and I am pretty sure that's how most of us feel. We did joked about how we had no choice, but we still report to work willingly as our patients need us.
Although I've always wanted to join the early childhood education sector, I'm glad that I gave nursing a shot. It's a choice I've made to stay on in nursing, and I've never look back since. We're all aware of the sacrifices we have to make as a nurse, but the sense of satisfaction you get is definitely worth those sacrifices. It always warms my heart whenever I discharge the lil ones who were so ill and lethargic when we first admitted them. Being part of their recovery journey is truly amazing.
It's already very meaningful to me to be working at the place I was born (even though the building have since been shifted to its current location), working on public holiday such as this jubilee weekend to nurse these sick kiddos back to health is an honour. I'm thankful for all the healthcare personnels who've worked over this long weekend together with me, for we all know how unusually hectic it was despite the fact that it's a public holiday.
Date : Thursday, August 6, 2015
Time : 12:57 AM Title : This too shall pass About 2+ years ago, I blogged an entry titled: Day 0, which marked the day before my first day of Pre-Registration Consolidation Placement (PRCP) at KK Hospital. It was the last and most crucial lap of nursing school, and I wanted to have a diary of my 3-month long internship so I could look back 2 years later (because my bond was 2 years) and every now and then thereafter, and remember the nurse I was and the good and bad I've been through. But obviously, it didn't happened. Given the following entry, my family had a really rough week then which I could still vividly remembers, and it kinda caused me to sink into a rather depressed mood and lost all motivation.
Time really flies, I have since completed my 2 years bond and am a free bird (bond-free) now. I must say I've been really lucky and fortunate, to have such a smooth-sailing start and journey... till the recent few months... A month ago, I wasn't able to sleep due to work-related issue. It wasn't the first time, probably the second, but it was the first time in my nursing career that I felt so ashamed of my actions, and needless to say, frightened as well. It was over a mistake so silly that it shouldn't even had happened in the first place. All I can say now is, sometimes, being too curious will harm you rather than help you. In my case, it wasn't even out of curiosity, what I did surpassed curiosity, it was plain nosiness. This mistake, along with some other little bits and pieces here and there, really got me reflecting about myself and I'm really disappointed with myself. I have to admit that I have somehow become the kind of nurse I never wanted to be and there is certainly an urgent need to change. One of the reason why I had wanted to start this blog was to constantly remind myself to stay humble and be aware and careful of my actions and words so as to not harm anyone, and to never be too comfortable. I remember during my 'newbie' days, how timid and lack of confidence I used to be and back then I really look up to my seniors who's able to carry themselves so professionally and confidently in front of patients and their caregivers, and of 'cos I aspire to be like them someday. However, the nurse I am today? Confident? Yes. Professional? No. But what's confidence when you are not professional? And I'm way too comfortable with the surrounding that it puts me in a very dangerous position, given my character. I've come this far, there are little achievements here and there that I've made along the way, and I really enjoy being a paediatric nurse though I dare not say that nursing is my calling but I am definitely not ready to leave this profession. Therefore, I hope these few incidents serve as a lesson and I'm glad I learnt it the hard way, which is why I came back here to make an entry to remind myself to never ever allow such history to repeat again. There's so much for me to work on to improve myself to be a better nurse. Meanwhile, no more silly mistakes please...
Date : Sunday, December 2, 2012
Time : 3:01 PM Title : Fix you When you get what you want, but not what you need When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep Stuck in reverse And the tears come streaming down your face When you lose something you can't replace When you love someone, but it goes to waste Could it be worse?
What a tough weekend for my family...
Date :
Time : 2:23 PM Title : Day 0 So today is officially Day 0, making tomorrow the start of my journey as a soon-to-be registered nurse.
Starting a new blog, because I want to be able to look back 2 years later, and remember everything I've been through. From being a greenhorn, to a full-fledged nurse, to someone whom others can count on. I know the one of the biggest problem I'd probably face is... my petite build... I don't look my age... parents will probably question and doubt my capability... how can they hand their children to someone who doesn't look mature enough... and the list goes on... So I've been preparing myself mentally, and I think I'm ready... to face the challenges, and to work doubly hard to prove my worth. Nervous much. Being a perfectionist, the last thing that I would want to see happening is me making mistake. I hate mistakes. Why can't we be... perfect?
Date : Wednesday, November 28, 2012
Time : 11:36 PM Title : Oath Cause best friends, best friends don't have to pretend You need a hand, and I'm right there right beside you You in the dark, I'll be the bright light to guide you Wherever you go, just always remember That you got a home for now and forever And if you get low, just call me whenever This is my oath to you
I never believed that anything could last forever. I don't deny that I do worry about whether or not someday, I might lose even the favourite girls. I am paranoid. I think a lot. And I worry a lot. Past experience, yes. But I'm thankful for what/who I have now.
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Yours truly,  Weihong 23 September 1993 Others,
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